This is hard.

THIS IS HARD!!

I had to say it. I have been feeling very challenged with this website and blog lately and I don't like it.

I have reached a significant point in this venture to which I have made my website and blog public knowledge to my friends and family and I was not greeted how I expected.

To be honest, I don't really know what I expected would happen...Maybe some people sharing my resources with their friends and so on...Maybe getting messages of encouragement from my friends and family. Support for putting myself out in a very small community of professionals and receiving praise for trying to accomplish a big dream of creating a following and business?

I honestly feel...neutral about the entire 'reveal'.

I think I bit off more than I could chew at the time and now I am losing momentum. I started off with a very ambitious schedule of posting content or social media posts 6 days a week, one of which is this blog and another that was self-created content/tutorials.

I thought I was setting myself up for success. Planning my posts in advance, making 5-6 videos so I could just post each week without hesitation...But now my software is in a shamble of error codes, I have no back stock of videos anymore and I am struggling daily with my social media posts as well as making this blog!

I have topics but it's just 'not the right time' to talk about something..Or I don't have the right mindset to set off on a specific tangent. So here I am, writing about my struggles. I have written about how hard it is to make new content but now it's not so much the ideas as I think I am burning out and stressing over what direction I should be traveling and how fast!!

This is harder than I thought it would be. I need to spend so much time creating new content versus making videos (and finding software that doesn't reject everything I try to make or ruining it with GIANT watermarks)...WHERE am I supposed to find the time and energy to make my vision come true!??!

All in all, what I am trying to say is...I'm struggling and I am NOT finding my flow. My skills do not reach or match the challenge presented to me. But I have to look at the positive. I have to assume that I WILL get there and I WILL find flow. I have to look at the challenge as an opportunity to grow and evolve and to use this struggle as a motivational tool to push me to succeed.

BUT IT'S SO HARD!!

Yes, I am whining a lot. But we all have to vent and express ourselves in a healthy outlet and this is mine. So comment below about how you vent/express yourself to manage stress and work-related burnout/overwhelming frustration and challenge.

Send me an email if you want/need to vent about your own personal struggle with program planning, or facilitation stress or whatever it is that is making your brain explode with frustration but you are too passionate to give it up.

Thank you for letting me vent in a healthy environment/format and please make me feel normal by reaching out with your issues.

I'll be waiting!